New Blog!

8 Aug

I am currently in the process of starting a new blog where I can fit everything I want to share about my spiritual journey. Hopefully, it’ll be up by Saturday! New blog, new blog name, new blog address, so if you’re following me now, be prepared to make the switch soon! Light & LOVE! And bare with me, I’m finding my true self!

Goddess Mena Love ūüėČ



My Perspective on Fruitvale Station

30 Jul

This is a platform where I choose to display my emotions! In advance, if you do not agree with me, that is your opinion, I have the right to show mine! Writing is the best way for me to get out my emotions, so this is me  being comfortable in my own skin.

I went blindly, not doing research or knowing exactly what this movie was about. Only hearing the rave reviews and how every black person on the planet should support this film, is the reason why I decided to take my family to see Fruitvale Station. The gist of the movie is about a 22yr old man, who is from the urban area of Oakland, Ca, trying to make it, with little to no real legit income, with intentions of taking great care of his daughter and being a supportive boyfriend to his girlfriend. His life takes a detour for what people may call the worse, when he is basically harassed like an animal and fatally shot by a transit officer on New Years’s Day 2009 at Fruitvale Bart Station.

This is how the movie opens up……

As soon, as I seen that actual footage in the opening of Fruitvale Station, that set the tone for me. I was immediately pissed! I was angry, I felt sympathy for Oscar Grant’s family, especially his daughter. I immediately thought about Trayvon Martin and his family, and most importantly my own boys and the future of black men in this twisted society.

I don’t watch t.v. that much, on purpose, and I definitely like to tune out the news because of all the negativity! It just dampers my whole spirit and who wants to look at such negativity ’round the clock? At the same time, because I don’t watch that much media programming, I was not aware of this incident until I seen the movie Fruitvale Station. And I can say the same for most people I know, as well. The media likes to glorify matters that really don’t mean anything to us a society that will help us grow. Instead, issues like the wrongful death of Oscar Grant get swept under the rug, until it’s forced in our faces. I’m sure there are many cases like this that happen all the time and we (the public) don’t know it’s happening because the media is not showing us. Stories like what Kanye West & Kim Kardashian are naming their baby, or who is doing what or who, and other bullshit is glorified to keep us dumbed down, and unaware.

I didn’t know Oscar Grant personally, but how he was depicted and portrayed in Fruitvale Station, showed he had somewhat of an anger issue. Now, we all have faults that need to be worked on and I’m not condemning the brotha for showing emotions, but it’s just the way you handle certain things, where you can’t let anything or anybody get that energy out of you. I have not been in a situation where I’ve been targeted by the police and handled like a non-human being, so maybe I would see things differently if in that position. Throughout the movie there were circumstances that caused his anger to rise a bit much and I just feel like there are better ways to channel your anger in the face of crucial times. I’m learning and growing from this, myself. It’s hard but it can be done.

In the scene where Oscar and his friends were being held outside of the train, had all his friends would’ve just sat there in a calm manner without heckling the female officer and being disrespectful to the others officers, keeping their mouths shut, he may have been alive today. I’m not saying kiss ass, but there is a time a place for everything. In the same breath, the actions of the transit officers did not warrant harassment or taking a life. I DO feel like the officers were antagonizing these men on purpose (calling them bitch ass niggas over and over), just to justify why they had to handle them so harshly. At one point, Oscar Grant is telling the officers that everything is cool, trying to be compliant with them.

From experience, having an uncle in and out of jail all of my life and looking at how he handles authority with this macho-ism anger, it just doesn’t help. What I want to teach my boys is not to be afraid of them (cops), but definitely be aware and be smart! I want to teach them that if they are ever in that situation, to just shut the fuck up, and any wrong doings that are done, can be handled on paper! Sue the hell out of them and be alive to see justice prevail. We can not fight them physically, we need to be make smarter decisions on how to fight them and win at their game. I don’t want to come off racist, but I am black, my boys are black, and I care about the evolution of my black people in this world, first! I’m all for humanity coming together, but it hurts to see one race of people (knowing that it yours), being treated unjustly like we are not human at all, as if we don’t have the same human rights to this world as others. This world is not just for one race of people, and when people really get that,understand that fully, and start LOVING each other no matter the outward appearance, is when we will really start to see a change for the better. ¬†I’m not saying deny your feelings and don’t ever get angry, but it’s what you do with that anger, it’s your reaction! You are ultimately responsible for how you respond or react to somebody else’s bullshit!

I just can’t get out of my mind his last words, “I have a daughter”. That hurt me so much, because you could tell by the way he was portayed in Fruitvale Station that he had a big heart, he was trying to be a better man. He’s human, he didn’t deserve to die that way. And that little girl didn’t deserve to have her father taken away from her like that.

In a nutshell, I LOVED the movie, would recommend that everyone, no matter your race, to go see Fruitvale Station! Michael B. Jordan, who played Oscar Grant, was great at showing all real sides of Grant as a human being; his anger, struggles with selling marijuana, smoking it, his sensitive side, a LOVING father, son, brother, friend, and boyfriend, and also his sense of humor and his awareness for wanting to be a better person.

I’m am a little disturbed that this did not get the world wide attention that it deserved, at the time, however I am grateful that I am aware now. I have to protect my boys, my family, and my life! Black men and black youth are getting targeted everyday all over the world by police brutality and it’s not being shown to the masses!

So, since I wasn’t exposed to this until now, I feel like it’s my job to expose this to others who have not seen this yet! And go see this movie, Fruitvale Station! Support it and pass it on! Everyone can learn and grow from this! Praying for strength, LOVE, & forgiveness for his family.

My Spirit Animal: The Hummingbird

26 Jul


Ever since I re-posted a post from Raising Ecstasy’s page on Facebook, I’ve been so drawn to hummingbirds. Of course, immediately I was attracted to the phrase, “Ride the energy of your own unique spirit”, but the flock of birds and one colorful, free bird flying alone inspired my next tattoo! I so¬†resonate¬†with the lone hummingbird in the pic! Being drawn to the hummingbird as a spirit animal guide naturally ignited the research of spiritual meanings of hummingbirds.

Spiritual Meanings & How It Relates To Me

The hummingbird spirit animal symbolizes the enjoyment of life and lightness of being.” Wow, on my spiritual journey and recent outlook on life, enjoying my life is at the top of the list forever and ever! Learning to not take things so seriously, self-sabotaging; getting out of my own way, ebbing and flowing with the universe, asking, believing, and receiving all that I desire in life has definitely made me feel lighter! No fear, no worries! All LOVE!

Those who have the hummingbird as a totem are invited to enjoy the sweetness of life, lift up negativity wherever it creeps in and express love more fully in their daily endeavors.” With being deep in day 3 of the “May Cause Miracles ” 40 day self-improvement journey, instead of reacting to negativity, which is illusionary (FEAR), I’m learning to see all things, all situations, all people with the lens of LOVE. Witnessing all that I’m afraid of and confronting it with LOVE is all that I’m vibrating at this point in my life. This hummingbird comes right on time for me, another reminder to express LOVE fully!

“By affinity with the hummingbird, those who have this bird as totem may be encouraged to develop their adaptability and resiliency while keeping a playful and optimistic outlook.” I’ve always been a person who can adapt to change easily, adapt to life’s hiccups, and with ease, grow out of my lessons with insight, stronger and wiser. I’ve been through so many emotionally traumatic situations, I’ve learned that ultimately I create every situation in my life, positive or negative. If I thought it, focused on it, gave it much energy, the universe definitely gave back it! Now, I drown myself in positive affirmations. I have no choice but to look at life optimistically! No one else can keep me miracle-minded better than me, and I don’t expect anyone to!

The hummingbird generally symbolizes joy and playfulness, as well as adaptability. Additional symbolic meanings are:

  • Lightness of being, enjoyment of life
  • Being more present
  • Independence
  • Bringing playfulness and joy in your life
  • Lifting up negativity
  • Swiftness, ability to respond quickly
  • Resiliency, being able to travel great distances tirelessly

If the hummingbird shows up in your life as a spirit animal, it may remind you to enjoy life‚Äôs simple pleasures and take time to enjoy yourself. The hummingbird‚Äôs wisdom carries an invitation to take part in and draw to you life‚Äôs sweetness, like you would drink the nectar of your own flower.¬†The call of the hummingbird totem will guide you to open up to love and lightness in your emotional life. When you see your totem, you are encouraged to open up your heart and expose yourself more to joy and love. It might be time to show how you feel to loved ones or people who are close to you. ” So right on time for me! Yes, I practice showing LOVE to LOVED ones, but honestly not enough! I’m also working on showing more LOVE to those who are not in my immediate circle. LIGHT & LOVE to all, I mean that from the heart. Yes, I am willing to see everything I encounter differently! Yes, I am willing to see LOVE! I want LOVE to vibrate in every atom in my body!

How to Use The Hummingbird Spirit Guide to Lift Up Negativity

The spirit of the hummingbird is a powerful mean to lighten up your mood when you feel down. This power animal is a useful ally to lift you up and instill more joy and playfulness in your daily grind.¬†When facing challenges or an environment plagued by negativity, call on the hummingbird to help you bring a positive outlook on the situation and find your way out with optimism.” And this is exactly why I need the hummingbird to be my next tattoo! I’ll post pics when I get it!

Heaven’s Angel

18 Jul

You know that old saying, “don’t judge a book by it’s cover”? Well, that still rings truth in this day in age. Hi, my name is Mena and sometimes I can be very judgmental towards people and things that are not in my realm. (*It’s funny because I get irritated with others when I see the same shit in them; *self reflection–self-improving)

So, this morning I’m feeling okay, trying to get back into my routine with my morning walk/run combo, feeling all extra confident. (*Reflection from vision board I recently created).

Before getting into my car, a man who looked like he was getting ready to ask for some spare change, waved at me from a distance. Walking to my car, I sort of waved back, like no enthusiasm in the wave at all. I get in my car, start it and to my surprise, it ain’t startin’!

Now, the Mena who had no awareness of her thoughts would’ve jumped out the car angrily, went in the house and took out her frustration on everybody. She would’ve damned the car, damned the people who made it, damned the people who sold it to her, damned the innocent pedestrian in the street, all because she couldn’t control her anger enough to see that this problem was only gonna be temporary.

I walked in the house calmly, after replaying the several attempts of trying to start my car in my mind. I called my LOVED ONE to get some advice on what I should do. With him on the phone, he tells me to start the car….AGAIN.

In a serenity state of consciousness and ego removed, with LOVE, I did.

My LOVED ONE then proceeded to give me directions on how to jump start a car. I immediately wanted to tune him out. If anyone knows me, they know that I am a girly girl! Yes, I need to know how to jump start a car with jumper cables for emergency purposes, but because I’ve watch so much T.V., all I could think about was I’m gonna get electrocuted.

I hang up from him, walk in the house and get my mother. Yeah, some back up, team work!

So we’re outside, both looking like we’re getting ready to go into car surgery, and I’m confirming with my mother that she definitely knows how to use these jumper cables. She reassures me that she knows exactly what she’s doing. The positive is on the positive and the negative is on the negative. Out of nowhere, the man who I sort of waved at was right in the middle of both cars, making sure the cables were put on correctly. I’m looking at him like “um, yeah, we got it”, but not realizing that one of the cables wasn’t securely on. He gets all in our flow and adjusted the loose cable.

My car starts!

I’m all extra overjoyed, high five-ing my mom, looking up to see that the man is starting to walk away. As he walks away, I hear him say, “yeah I use to help my daughter’s car like this”. Immediately, spirit spoke to me, gave him $5 and I felt good about it, too!

He said, “thanks, I needed some cigarettes”.

Lesson learned today!

Yes, be aware and alert of ¬†people and their potential harmful motives.¬†But if you soften your heart and see the greater good in ANYONE, any BEING, you can not only feel your blessings, you can also see that you’re a blessing.

Heaven's Angel

Heaven’s Angel


Mena Love



19 Mar

LOL, I’m hooked!


In episode five host Codine Williams goes shopping to up her game and fit in with the girls of the dancehall.

[Thanks Keysha]

Oh dear… Hahahahahahahahahaha.

Struggling host Codine¬†went on a shopping trip with two dancehall groupies and still failed to ‚Äúfit in‚ÄĚ.

Also I don‚Äôt quite understand why Codine¬†thinks these ladies are ‚Äúchannelling Lady Gaga and Nicki Minaj‚ÄĚ. The colourful wigs, make up and outfits are nothing new in Jamaica.¬† She should already know this.


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The Affirmation Challenge & 5 Steps to a Healthy Mind

19 Mar

It’s time….

19 Mar
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13 Mar

Amazing things are happening to me! I feel like a walking beam of manifesting light! Quickly, things that I need and desire are coming to me! My blessing is for others to feel the LOVE, joy, & peace, that I’m feeling!

Quieting The Mind

14 Jan

For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been studying meditation. There are so many avenues ranging from different religious practices to the types of meditation (i.e. transcendental, guided, vipassana, walking, etc), but all leading up to one thing, everyone trying to reach the same goal and that’s to be one with the creator.

Everyone is trying to reach this higher level of consciousness, either by praying or meditating, and I don’t blame them! To want to connect with the energy that you were connected with before entering into this earthly realm is truly bliss! It’s like we come to earth and forget everything our souls were connected to before coming here. Enlightenment, our “Buddha” nature, gets scrambled with all these mindless distractions, and we’re (our souls) trying to elevate back to our true selves.

Why is it so important to meditate? Why are so many people trying so hard to connect to something greater than them? What is the big deal about quieting the mind? The answer to those questions can be looked up for general answers, but the answer that you’ll resonate with the most is the one that comes from you. From person to person, the answer is not the same . We go around life sometimes, submerged in what society labels us as, into others’ businesses, not concentrating on what we really need to be focusing on and then get mad at either ourselves or GOD when trying to find the simple answers for certain dilemmas or issues, when the answer lies within us. Being still, giving time to ourselves to be quiet just enough, to receive the answers we’re all looking for, comes when we quiet the mind. This is something that I’m learning right at this very moment. I am no expert on meditation, however I am a student of LIFE and with my spiritual growth, I’m trying to connect to a part of me that will consciously guide me to greater things, following my intuition. Speaking of following my intuition, I feel that the super light being that I am growing to be, wants me to indulge in my intuition more. With quieting the mind, I’ll have more peace, understanding, and spiritual awareness beyond belief, answers to my questions while on my spiritual journey will be more keen, so that I am able to trust myself when making decisions.

On the real, as I’ve been trying to meditate more everyday, I find it hard for me to sit in one place, focusing on my breath and quieting the mind. I find that I have to meditate upon waking up, still lying in bed, but still, as soon as I begin to try to focus, I’m wondering,

“What am I going to wear today?

Did I pay that bill, yet”

Reggae earworms, R&B earworms, Alternative Rock earworms, Future Jazz earworms, Kendrick Lamar earworms,

“It’s Friday, you ain’t got no job, and you got shit to do!” (Quotes from the movie Friday)

“I can’t believe Ocho Cinco head budded that girl!”

“And damn, did KG really tell Carmello that his wife taste like cheerios?”

With all that mind chatter going on, I’m able to squeeze a little bit of inner intelligence that says, “WRITE”.

Everyday for the past couple of weeks, I get up, do my regular lazy morning routine and while quieting the mind, my spirit says,

Write more, you need to write more“.

And I say, “What the heck for? No one is listening”.

So here I am, at 7:52am, after my morning quickie meditation, writing. It’s not that I hate to write, it’s just that I’m lazy! There, I said it! I am admitting that I am lazy! Admitting is the first step, right?

But my spirit says, “How do you expect to reach the people you wanna reach, or do anything that you’re called to do, if you’re lazy?”

As of lately, quieting my mind has lead me to listen more, take the first step out my lazy routine and write. And who cares if no one is listening, spirit is telling me to write, so guess what?

I gotta write.

I gotta meditate more.

I gotta focus on what I need to manifest (You know, Ask, Believe, Receive).

I gotta learn and apply.

I gotta write some more.

And most importantly, I gotta take responsibility for MY spiritual growth.

~Mena Love